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Jun. 19th, 2006 @ 01:39 pm
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why are there always those people that will do anything to convince others of things that are completely untrue? i dont think theres anything that i hate more. if they want to start shit, thats fine with me, just dont expect me to be around to deal with it. go ahead and believe them, of all people you should know its untrue. i dont care if you get mad at me, its weak that you would believe someone who will do anything to get you away from me, and i mean anything.Current Mood:  enraged Current Music: Darkest Hour |
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May. 13th, 2006 @ 02:47 am
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sometimes. i get really irritated. and i want to scream, rip my hair out, bang my head against the wall, or stab someone. but other than that im great. |
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Apr. 27th, 2006 @ 04:02 am
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fuck. im really irritated. the end. |
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Apr. 16th, 2006 @ 01:49 pm
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i can't sit back and watch you destroy yourself forever. this is so frustrating. i feel so worthless. |
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Apr. 10th, 2006 @ 09:00 pm
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i have the worst feeling its going to happen again. its killing me. |
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how can you tell someone you love them, then make it so obvious that you dont want to see them? i dont know what i did wrong. i dont know what i did to deserve this. i know its going to stop. i know i deserve better. i guess youll have more time for other things now that i wont be bothing you anymore. sorry for the inconvenience. if you loved me even a fraction as much as you said you would want to see me.
this is probably the biggest disappointment of my entire life.
its really hard to find words to describe how this makes me feel. all those things you said about being with me...and you dont even want to see me. you dont make any sense and im done with you making me feel like shit. i was so excited about seeing you this weekend, i had been waiting for months. its ok i guess, im used to you getting my hopes up.
Mar. 31st, 2006 @ 07:04 pm
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please dont make it so obvious you dont want to see me next time
maybe ill hate myself a little bit less then
Mar. 30th, 2006 @ 09:39 pm
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i mowed the lawn in the rain today.
it was emo.
Mar. 27th, 2006 @ 05:00 pm
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my life isnt what it used to be. being alone has taught me alot of things. i still have no self esteem, but i can at least be content with who i am. i have no desire to go back to i was before this. i try to stay away from things and people that remind me of the past. theres nothing i can do about the past...but i know i can do something about the future. i know i dont need someone else in my life to make me happy. staying strong is the hardest part, its so easy to fall back into my old habits and go back to feeling like shit everyday. im not gonna lie, being alone has been a terrible experience and im scared of whats going to happen next. im not gonna live my life wandering from relationship to relationship, the only thing i really need is myself. im used to feeling unloved. heartbroken is an understatement for the way i feel, but its just part of life. ive realized that being mad at people for small things is a waste of my life, starting shit with people isnt worth it. all i want to do is chill out, smoke, and sip on some beer. i know its only a matter of time now until i can be completely happy with being alone. dont tell me you love me and that im not alone, you dont know how i feel. this is the way i want to be.
Mar. 19th, 2006 @ 10:36 pm
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i simply do not exist
Mar. 8th, 2006 @ 02:36 pm
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for the first time in over 3 years im completely alone
and im ok with that
Feb. 27th, 2006 @ 02:46 am
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dear Valentines Day,
fuck you, thanks for reminding me of how/why im single.
Love,
your biggest fucking fan
Feb. 11th, 2006 @ 03:45 pm
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KABOOM
p.s. go fuck yourself
Feb. 3rd, 2006 @ 12:59 pm
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im going to blow up
Jan. 29th, 2006 @ 08:41 pm
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last night was intense
Dec. 3rd, 2005 @ 10:22 am
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i have a new hobby
its grabbing my nuts
Nov. 21st, 2005 @ 08:58 am
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i got a job at HEB, holla at ya boy
Nov. 8th, 2005 @ 06:04 pm
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i need a job, does anybody want to hook me up?
Oct. 31st, 2005 @ 12:56 pm
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i got kicked out of St. Edwards until next semester. im not allowed on campus until December 9th. i cant live on campus next semester.
Oct. 25th, 2005 @ 10:26 pm
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ummm i got caught for smoking in my room today.
so im either going to get kicked out of St. Edwards, get kicked out of my dorm, pay a fine, or any combination of these.
go life
Oct. 25th, 2005 @ 01:40 am
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